My Secret Life: ...life... its hard...

Well... I hate to be a downer, but life is definitely hard. Man it was so much easier when I was five years old... all I had to think about was fun.
Man I miss those days...
But then of course my age that I am now, comes with SO many ups as well. I get to stay home alone, I get to go places and be dropped off, I get to go out with friends... the list goes on and on...
Let's just say teenagehood isn't what all girls make it up to be, like saying the loved being thirteen. I don't know who the heck would wanna be this age again!
It sucks! Your so hormonal and then in the back of your head your hitting yourself thinking; "What's wrong with me?! This is so stupid!!! Why am I crying over this?!" Ugh...
I just hope my 14th year is better than my 13th, I know for sure that me being thirteen isn't exactly a basket of chocolate.
Well... I will say that it has been fun, but a lot of the time I'm really down and hormonal and I can't control myself, I really hate it and its a big bummer.
I am really happy 90% of the time but of course my hormones have to take control of me, I HATE HATE HATE hormones!
See... there I go getting all angry again...=(
So yeah... word of advice; life & teenagehood is hard.
At least I'm not the only one to go through this idiotic crap, I have a good outlook on things most of the time. I just hope that the rest of my life isn't as bad as being thirteen.
I HATE being thirteen, I'm not going to regret ignoring this age and I know it.
I'd rather be fifteen right now to be honest, fourteen I don't think is going to be really any better than being thirteen.
I miss being happy-go-lucky all the time...

-Jazz

My Secret Life: Pretty good, and semi embarrassing horseback ride.

Well, today I embarrassed myself pretty good... unfortunately its that time of the month again for me...=/ So that is to blame for what I did.
I thought it was going to be an amazing ride and perfect, which in reality it really was pretty fun. =) As always. But pretty much what was happening, I put my foot into the stirrup and I was just about to swing my leg over the back of Brownie and then my left leg gave out on me!
And again I got a little lectured to not do that again, not like "YOU HORRIBLE GIRL YOU HURT MY HORSE!!!!" But it was just kind of "Whoa! Careful Jazz, try not to do that again."
It was so humiliating... I really wish "Aunt Flo" wasn't so mean.
I was perfectly fine before horseback, just a little achy but I doped up on motrin and then I felt great before I got there and I got Brownie all saddled up and everything before we had to go up.
And that's better than the last couple of times, considering that Kayla had to come and bridle him for me because I barely had the girth tightened at all on him...
He was a pretty good boy, but I almost hurt him when I tried to get one of his ears into the bridle thing, but I just talked softly to him and took the bridle off and tried again.
I'm proud of myself =) Brownie did good too, he cooperated during that part haha.
He was fun, and I'm super glad it wasn't windy today... that made it a whole lot better but sadly I didn't get to canter. =(
OH well... =) Hopefully Angela will let me come over on Monday or sometime next week and then we can go riding on the beach.
NEXT WEEK IS GOING TO BE AWESOME!!!
I am SO ecstatic for next Saturday!!!!! I'm gonna go down to Fort Bragg (Mendicino County) with Abby and ride on the beach!! YAY!
Its gonna be an awesome girlz weekend. =D
I am SO excited, I have SO got to unload my camera and get ready for the trip! I am so excited! Abby sounds pretty ecstatic to, she loooves cantering and I'm SO looking forward to a sunny day on the beach.
There is absolutely NOTHING better than cantering a horse on the beach on a sunny day... ^_^
And I'm 100% sure that Angela and Abby will agree with me on that one lol.
I am SO excited!!!!!
God is amazing =) I am so blessed in so many ways... TTYL!

-Jazz

My Secret Life: Bridal shower & awesome haircut =D

Hiya! =D

This is going to be REALLY short.
But I got an awwesommeriffic haircut today, =D Lots more fancy funky fun layers in my hair. =)
And now I'm off to a bridal shower for my youth counselor Briana. =D
I'll post some pics later of my new haircut =) TTYL!

~Jazz

My Secret Life: Sore sore sore...

Well, I am really sore...
But it was definitely worth it! =D I went riding and I cantered SO much on Monday, it was so much fun even though I seriously felt like I had frostbite on my cheeks lol.
It was very fun riding on Monday for sure. =) I'm hoping it'll be even more fun and sunny on Monday next time. Haha, funny thing is I was supposed to be riding Ditto when I went.
But Dansa looks almost exactly like him, I got confused so I put the saddle on Dansa... X) Oops!
Dansa's just as fun though =D But now I definitely know how to make my signals clear enough that they understand.
I LOVE HORSES!!! =D
I am sooo looking forward to riding again soon. =) I'm hoping a friend of mine, Mistea, she said we should ride together since we both ride with Angela.
I'm hoping we will soon, which I'm sure we will.
Well, I gtg, I'm really bored right now... and yeah... super bored..=/

~Jazz

My Secret life: Funnest lockin eva X)

Well, on Thursday night I went to a lockin with my friends at my youth group. Now believe me it was FUN!!!
But I was stupid and went and did the splits while trying to play a game called "grab-the-box-with-your-mouth-without-letting-any-other-part-of-your-body-touch-the-ground-but-your-feet" Fun right? lol
I stayed up until about 2am-ish that night, I finally went to bed after dozing off in a chair and my youth pastor Danny coming up to me and telling me I could go to bed if I wanted to I didn't have to stay up. lol
Of course I did after a bit, it took me a while to fall asleep but it was cool. =)
It was a lot of fun though =D, even though it was on short notice haha.
But yeah, life's going great right now =) My baby brother Isaiah is having his 7th birthday party today; so my house will be filled with little ones in a couple of hours haha.
I am missing the fundraiser car wash that my youth group is having right now, its on until 2:30 but um I slept in to late... X(
By the time I woke up it was like almost ninish and we were supposed to meet there and then by the time I got myself out of bed actually it was almost ten so I decided not to really bother.
By the time I'd get there it'd be almost 11 and mom was going to come and pick me up at noon.
When I was out of bed I wasn't even dressed so yeah... I'm missing it... =(
I really wanted to go but I was way to tired unfortunately.
But yeahh... I might go riding tomorrow so that should be fun. =)
Last week when I went riding was a BLAST =D!!
I'm really having a hard time accepting right now that I'll be 14 in about 29 days. O_O
I'm gonna be 9th grade come fall!! EEK!
But then its also really exciting =D That means I'm that much closer to being able to go to college and get my masters in English Literature/Equestrian studies! XD
And hopefully starting out saving up to get a horse and a small amount of property =), I really hope I'll be able to get some horses eventually.
At least just 3 or 4... not to many. I might have a little more maybe if I have help, and I'm really hoping I can find that special-someone to share that love of horses with me. Not just tolerate them...
Maybe not horse-crazy like me; but probably something to liking them more than hating them. But not tolerating...
So yeah, my future is UP in the air right now... =)
Well I'm going to skidaddle, I'm really bored and I want something to do... so I dunno what to do right now... so ta ta! =D

~Jazz

My Secret life: Amazing fantastical ride!

Hiya! =)

Sorry I haven't blogged in forever, been kinda busy. =)
But annnyway =D The main reason why I'm blogging is because I had THE most fantastical ride EVERRRRR yesterday!!! XD
I went riding on the beach with Angela yesterday!!! It was so amazing! Even though I was really doing kinda bad at getting Ditto to canter like I wanted him too...
But thats only because I'm really not used to him quite yet, that was only my second time riding him so far.
But I finally got the hang of him when we were heading back to the parking lot. It was an amazing ride all in all though! =D
I got to see a nasty storm start coming in, funny thing is there is no storm today like I thought there would be. It was all clear skies...
It was nasty yesterday after we were heading back; the clouds were dark and ominous hanging over us.
And the water beneath it looked so dark and angry like it was going to swallow anything that came into it's path.
But it was SO much fun X) Cantering was the most amazing thing ever! I can't wait until I get to canter bareback!!!
That will be sooo much better for my legs, next time I'm just going to wear some soccer socks under my jeans because my leg got scraped in a small spot and it burned.
But OMG was it SO much fun cantering on Ditto! Mariah took off though lol.
It was so funny watching her and Snickers bolt like lightning down the beach!
It was very cute how Mariah always came to me when Angela was calling her because I was on Ditto and Ditto is like best friends with Mariah.
Mariah wanted a carrot though lol. =D
I really hope I get to go next week to the beach X) It's going to be so much more fun! I was shaking with excitement as Ditto and I walked out onto the beach from the parking lot, it was SUCH a blessing from the Lord to be able to do that yesterday!
Well I should go now, I think I want to go and take some motrin for my nasty headache...=P
Ta ta!

~Jazzy